It's New Years Eve and I'm feeling so blah.
Almost as if I'm scared for the new year to come.
I don't know, I guess it could be personal.
I just wish I was with him right now.<3 =[
But, this is my last entry of 2007.
Hopefully 2008 will be amazing, I can't wait to live it up.
Have a good New Years Eve everyone. =]

-xox Olivia

This entry is going to be short and to the point (when there really isn't one.)
ANY WHO..
Last night was amazing, actually all of yesterday was quite amazing.
=] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] .. I think you get the point so I'll stop.
Christmas was alright, I suppose it wasn't anything spectacular but, I wasn't expecting it to be anyways.
And I love how Joe comes up to me, puts his arm around me and kidnaps me for a few minutes, haha.
I'll be quite honest though.. I thought he was someone else but, I'm glad it was him. =]
And those metal and punk dances, OMG. FREAKIN' AMAZING, HAHAHA.
But, like I said, this entry was going to be to the point and no nonsense, so there ya go.
Later days!

<3let's blind ourselves by love and be deaf to all who say it's fatal.
it's not that we don't know, it's just that we don't care.

Yesterday was the winter concert at school and it went alright.
Some people could have actually practiced before hand but, whatever.
I'm kinda glad it's over and done with, now we can start some new songs. =)
Other than that I finished my gingerbread house in advanced foods and I love it.
Yeah, it's pretty freaking adorable, haha.<3
Well, vacation started as of 1:53pm today, woo.
All day was just a party except for math, typical.
In english I played scrabble with Sean and Tom and I won.
Sorry Sean for you not being able to fit "beef" and "peanuts" haha, inside joke.
Mmm.. it's going to be nice to just relax and be with friends and family, I'm excited.
Not to mention my photography portfolio is coming out amazingly and I adore it, eee!
But yeah, time for me to go get ready for tonight, I'll update soonish.
Later Days!

<3 we're at the top of the world, you and i.
we got a lot of time and it sure feels right.

First of all, let me get this out.
YOU'RE A JOKE, STFU, YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE, BITCH.
Alright, now that I feel better..
I'm not even going to mention this weekend so let's continue..
Today's the start of the week before winter vacation and it's already off to a bad start.
Let's see, we keep having delays which means more make up work and not enough time.
For example, in photography we need to make a portfolio and it's never going to be finished due to weather.
I don't know. I guess I'm just super stressed out lately and nothing and no one is helping that get any better.
Yeah, I have people who are there for me but, every thing's just going downhill.
I'm glad none of you are in my shoes even though you all think I'm looking for your fucking sympathy and I'm def. not.
So, you also can STFU.
I'm not looking forward to weekends anymore, it's an honest waste.
But, maybe I'll have time now to get everything done and attempt to get better emotionally. HAHA Doubt that'll happen.
"It's hard to get rejected by the one you most expected to be by your side." Basically sums it up.
Yeah, I'll never be good enough, I get it. You don't need to keep reminding me.
I just hope after vacation everything will have improved even if it's only a little bit, it's something.
But, I'm gonna go make fun of Josh through texts since he likes melting snow.<3 *wink*
Peace Out.

I really hate how I'm all of a sudden lactose intolerant.
Especially since all my life I've loved dairy products and now I have to take a pill whenever I want it.
... and I usually forget to take it until after, which won't do anything. =[
Anywho and for some odd reason I've just been scared to get in a car, I just think the worst will happen.
A few days ago I went out with my mom and we were on the highway and I just had a panic attack, wtf.
I just hope it all goes away soon because these attacks aren't that great to deal with.
But, I had a kinda good weekend.
Friday I was with this adorable boy. =]
Saturday I was in NY for the day visiting grandparents.
Then Sunday I hung out with Alesha for the night which was fun.
It feels good to have everything resolved between us and it's just nice to get back to how we were.<3
Other than that hopefully this weekend will be better, but I'm not keeping my hopes up on that one.
Ugh. I have so much make up work to do and projects to finish and this senior essay to finish, meh.
I guess I won't be doing much this week so I can get everything done and get rid of this stress.
But, yeah, I'm gonna go finish making my amazing home-made sugar cookies, yum.
I'll update maybe at the mid-end of this week, later days.

All I have to say is that last night was supa cute. =]
...
Alright, good mood over.
I hate how when you look forward to something, it ends up ruined.
For example, I was looking forward to period 5.
But, she moved everyone into different kitchens and ruined everything.
I'm not with any of my lovers and we're on opposite sides of the room.
I guess the only good thing that came out of it was that the kid that arranged the new groups;
him and I use to fight last year in intro. foods and he wanted me in his group.
So, I'm glad every thing's resolved now between us. =]
I think last year was so meh because everyone stressed out so easily & this year it's relaxing.
Mainly because we all know what we're doing now and can fend for ourselves, aw.
My new group isn't bad though, so every thing should be amazing still.
Other than that, I adore the computer lab with Kenyon & sitting next to Allysha.
Mainly because Allysha & I act like we're in middle school.. haha.<3
Aw, good stuff, yo'. =P
But, I'm looking forward to this weekend.. even though I shouldn't (reason why stated above.) ^^^
I just hope everything goes well. *crosses fingers*
Time to go, though.
LATER DAYS.

<333333333333333333333333

Alright so since we had a power outage yesterday, the school was freezing.
But, stupid me never went back to my locker to get a sweatshirt so I was walking around in my spider-pig tee. =]
Yeah.. it was pretty sweet, lol.<3
So this week is already hectic and what not but, I will get everything done, I swear.
Other than that I really miss this cute boy and hopefully we're hanging out this weekend.
But, man do I love my period 5 class aka LINDSEY AND ROBERT.
"Ow, you almost poked my eye out."
"... that's what she said."
omg, i love you.<3 *kissy, kissy* ( . Y . ) haha, good times.
Anyways...
BAHAHAHAHA.
*clears throat* every thing's going good again, I guess.
So, that's a nice improvement.
Also I'd like to add that I'm supa happy with my senior essay so far. =]
But, of course on top of that I have a senior forum project due.. sometime soon?
Oh well.. I like the project and my candidate is amazing so it's off to a good start.
"Turn around, I think you'll like the view."
"Ouuu baby."
<3 computer lab fun.
ANYWHO.
I shall be going now and finishing my homework.
Peace out cub scout.

<33333 "a simple whisper from your voice and I fade away..."

Well.. a few minutes ago definitely made my weekend.
But, seriously, I think when you IM me you're drunk or something.
Because what comes out of your mouth, whoa, haha. =]
But, it's funny and cute so I don't mind even if you are drunk.
Anyways, gah, it's so hot in the house, meh.
Anyone wanna come cool me down? *wink* Lol, Jake, you're dumb.
Hmm. Tomorrow shall be interesting, I guess we'll see how it goes.
This headache won't go away. =[ I think I've had it since Friday.
Oh well. I'm actually in a good mood right now; definitely wasn't earlier.
But, thank you for caring enough to apologize and make things better.<3
Anywho.. this entry isn't going anywhere so I'll update another day.
Later Days.

Sarcastically, of course.
I just wish you would get over it and move on.
We've grown up since it all happened and it's better now.
I just wish you could see it.
Because honestly, telling us we can't see each other we'll just want to even more.
Just give us a chance, other people have.
Trust me, it won't be as bad as it was, I know it won't.
We haven't fought since it happened and that definitely shows improvement from where we were.
Sigh, this just aggravates me.
But.. you know what, I'm not giving up so deal with it.
Parents just don't understand. Whatev. =[


"I've gone for too long
Living like I'm not alive
So I'm gonna start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken, hope embraced
And have I told you
I'm not going
cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you."
<33

I'm so fed up with people coming up with idiotic reasons for hating/dis-liking someone else.
Seriously grow the fuck up and deal with the fact that there will always be people you don't like.
Either way, you're going to have to put up with them and at least attempt to get along.
Honestly.. you're pissing me off the most with your stupid jealousy.
Get the fuck over it and move the fuck on.
Stop making people show sympathy for you so you feel better, it's pathetic.
Toughen up because when you graduate you won't always have someone watching your back.
I'm just done with all you immature girls giving my friends and I crap over stupid drama.
Especially when none of us even did or said anything to you in the first place.
It's almost as if you need drama to function, well I'll let you in on a little secret..
everyone's over all your drama and no one's putting up with it anymore so learn to live without it.
Meh. Sorry for ranting but, I don't need all this extra stress, I'm stressed enough as it is.
So just keep your little problems to yourself 'cause I don't wanna hear it.
That's all, peace.

<33.

Just got back from a wonderful night with MegXtreme. =)
Yeah, first time we actually hung out since like 8th grade formal.
Shocking... I know.
But, it was definitely fun being reunited with her.
We went to the movies and hung out with her crazy father.
Who apparently likes to come into movies and attack us, lol.
All in all it was all good.
Hopefully we can hang out again... sooner than 4 years from now.
"It's smaller and twisted." HAHA. I love us.<3
Other than that today was alright, relaxing day and hilarious night.
But, I'm gonna go I don't feel good at the moment.
Later Days!

Hope everyone had a good day today. =)
The Platt vs. Maloney game was good; only lost by 2 points.
The boys definitely worked their asses off today though.
After that I just went out with my brother, then came home and helped out.
My relatives from NY came down and we just hung out and then had dinner.
Everything was good; no drama for once, thankfully.
But, other than that not much has been going on.
I'm glad to get a few days off from school, I've been so stressed.
So, hopefully it'll all go away. =)
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Meghan or MegXtreme, haha.
^her powderpuff nickname, gotta love her.<3
Then maybe hanging out with some other people and what not. ; )
But, I'm gonna go talk to some people and watch Hairspray, peace.
<3

Someone just tell me why I even bother trying anymore.
Obviously it's more important to me, than it ever was to you.
I'm so fucking disappointed and so fucking hurt.
Honestly, I'm sick of always being so hopeful all the time.
=(


"the best part of "believe" is the lie."

payback`s a b1tcH.
.. you know who you are.


ps- ♥ you`re cute though.

Yeah, everyone's blaming everything that happened between us on me.
We both had to do with what happened.
But, you can't sit there and judge both of us on a situation you've never been in.
It's so incredibly hard and I hope none of you have to go through it.
Yes, I'm trying to be the bigger person with all of this.
Yes, it's hard but, I'm trying and that's all that matters.
"Hope for the best and prepare for the worst."
The only thing keeping me somewhat hopeful throughout this.
Just please don't start even more drama over it unless you've experienced it.
The both of us have so much strength and all you're doing is making us feel | | that small.
Just let us work things out by ourselves.
That's all I ask.

... with almost everything.
It seems as if everything good turned to crap.
But, that's my life I guess. Meh.
I'm sick and I feel like my body is just gonna fall over I'm so weak.
I guess the only good news is that I made honor roll.
I was excited until last night happened but, I'm not going into that topic.
I don't know.. I just wish somehow everything would just fall into place.
Like it was a few days ago. =( Sigh.
I always have my hope though.
Just isn't great to watch a movie about the war and how badly people come back injured.
... when your cousin just went there the beginning of the month and your friend goes next month.
Basically, it didn't help my already annoyed/upset mood I was in today.
So sorry to anyone I got mad at or whatever.
But, I'm gonna go finish my homework and medicate myself.
Later days.

staystrong.<3

Well... we won our powderpuff game 34 to 30.
It definitely was a tight/exciting game & everyone did great.
Other than that.. I'm too tired to keep writing.
So, later days. =]